It’s Co-op day!!

Yes, the day is finally here, and I am so excited for this day, the day we start our new co-op classes, this year we chose to go with a group that catered more to younger children like my kiddos, they are super excited, we are sad that we’re having to leave some friends behind but, we can still always catch up during playdates, but they are also so excited to be meeting new friends and reconnecting with some old friends we have before our co-op split into three different groups (gotta love that the numbers of homeschoolers grows so much you have to make more groups!!!)

I can’t wait to meet all the new moms too, it’s so nice to be able to have what we call “mom time” and just sit and chat with other moms for a whole hour every other week! Such a great refresher! I’m also LOVING the classes we have this year, for Jeremiah he gets to go to a Lego class.. super fun right? He’s so into building with Legos right now and loves using his imagination to make new things. He’s also doing a class called “stand up and talk” it’s a public speaking/show and tell type of class I get to help teach that one and can’t wait to see all those sweet kiddos telling us about all sorts of things.

Caidence gets to go to an Adventures in the Bible class.. how awesome does that sound! It’s going to go in depth into lots of stories and people of the Bible! Then, she also gets to go to a Magic School Bus class where they watch episodes of The Magic School Bus and learn all about the topic of the show!

Then, Ethan and Isabelle get to have fun playing with their friends in the nursery, they’re going to love that getting to play with friends for 2 hours… OH YEAH!!

So tell me, what’s your co-op like? What classes do you have? Is it focused learning or just for play? I would love to hear all about it, just comment below!

Also, let me know, what type of post do you want to see from me? I would love some feedback so I can get some posts up that you would love!

Another Year

Today is my oldest son’s 7th birthday! Crazy, crazy, crazy, my child is SEVEN how did that even happen? At every single birthday I always think that I always think how in the world did time pass by that fast? How did another year move away so quickly and then I get sad. I get upset at myself for all my parenting failures, and all the things I could have done different and all the things I wished I would have made time for. Don’t we all?

Then, I think about all the incredible fabulous memories I have had with him and each of my children and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. It’s at that time I realize no one is perfect, God never promised us that we would be perfect or that we would get everything right the first time or that the amazing children He gave us would come with complete instructions. But, we are called to love and even though I haven’t been the perfect mom I have loved. I have tried my hardest to be a great mom and to give each of my children the love they need.

We got 3 out of 4 to stay still that's an accomplishment!!

We got 3 out of 4 to stay still that’s an accomplishment!!

So, if you are in the struggles of feeling like a failure as a parent or that your time with them is slipping by and you have to get it perfect now, just know that you don’t and will never be so, if you’re striving for perfection you will be disappointed but strive for love. Let them know that you unconditionally love them each and every day, that’s what they will remember!


Homemade Clay!



Homemade clay is so much fun not only fun to make, but so much fun to play with after you get to mix it all together, and it’s so simple to do too.  So, I want to share with you our simple recipe for homemade clay.

What you will need:

  • 3 cups flour
  • 1 cup salt
  • 1 cup water
  • 2 tablespoons of cooking oil
  • mixing bowl
  • precious little helpers (most important ingredient 🙂 !!)

volcano mix ingredients



Next comes the really fun part:

The mixing! Stir all ingredients really well.

volcano stirAnd, of course you can’t make clay without getting dirty, so make sure you mix with your hands:

volcano mix with hands

Even the little one’s can join in on this one

volcano Isabelle mixing


Now, you’re ready to play!  In my next post I’ll show you what we did with our clay, it was so much fun!

** And, yes you will make a mess, but, that’s half the fun and everyone can join in on cleanup too!


Being An Intentional Mommy Tip #5

For Tip #5, this should be the most simple of all the tips, but a lot of times for us parents this is the hardest tip to remember and to put into practice this one kind of goes right along with the other tips I have done, but it’s one of the most important,

Just remember that being a mommy is a wonderful gift from God, and not everyone gets this special gift, He sometimes has other wonderful gifts planned for certain women and sometimes that doesn’t include being able to be a mother but for those of us whom He has chosen to have that gift, we need to embrace it and be so very thankful to Him for it and cherish each and every second of it, including those days when we really just want a little break.  Our children are so precious to us and we need to make ourselves realize that each and every day and when we think of what a wonderful gift we have it makes the days be so much easier………. even the REALLY hard one’s.

Just be patient, don’t give up, trust God, it won’t always be easy but it will be worth it.  Now, get off here and go love on your babies! 🙂

Tip #4 Being An Intentional Mommy

  Here we are now at tip #4 and for this one, it’s going to be a bit harder for some of us tip #4 is to get off the phone and the computer.  To me, the phone isn’t a really big issue, but, the computer is another story.  There is always something that just “has” to be done, it seems as if it can’t wait another minute.  There’s no way because that e-mail is going to disappear, and there will never again be a chance to check Facebook or if I don’t go ahead and do this blog post it will NEVER get done.  As we all know, that is completely not true.  If we take out the time for our children instead of being distracted by a text message or something on the computer it will all be there when we are done with what they really do need, and that is time with us.  

  How many times have you been in the middle of something on your phone or computer and your child has just simply asked for you to play with them, or to watch what they are doing, or ask you a question and you just say “uh-huh” and blow it off (and without even meaning to).  I wonder how much time is really wasted on these things.  If we sat down and counted the time we spend with our technology instead of our children which would be more.  Well, if it’s the time spent doing these types of things it should change.

  Let’s fix this, go unplugged all day.  Pick a day a week and be completely unplugged, no doing anything that can really and truly be put off until later, and focus on them.  Make little changes everyday as well and make sure that if they ask you a question or want to show you something really be engaged in that conversation, turn away from what you are doing and focus fully on them.  If they ask you to come and play do it.  Stop what you are doing and be there for them.  

  One way that you can make sure to do this so that they are never second to your technology is to pick a certain time in the day where you will spend a little amount of time doing everything you actually need to do  and let them know that at this time every day they need to find something to do independently or with their brothers and sisters (for those of you like me with some really young one’s, wait for nap time) so you can have this time but make it one time per day and make sure you stick to the certain time of day they will get used to giving you this time and you can get everything done efficiently all the while still giving them what they need throughout the day.  Trust me, it will be worth it to you and to them.

How do you respond when people say to you, “my you have your hands full”?  I get that comment many, many times.  Some people (mostly other mothers) say this because they truly understand what it takes to have children especially with us having 4 children.  But, others say that while they look at you like wow, you must be crazy to have that many children which is ok, because they unlike the other mothers don’t understand.

But no matter who the one making the comment is, I usually always respond with the same thing I always say, “yes”, then give a nice smile and then add “but I love every second of it”.  Then, pretty much every single time I always wonder, did I answer it in a good way, did I answer it in a way that will show them that just because I do “have my hands full” doesn’t mean that I don’t have a wonderful life, it doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy it, and it certainly doesn’t mean that if I had the chance that I would ever change it for the world.  Then, after I question that I always reflect on how truly blessed I really am.  God has given me the most wonderful husband that anyone could ever ask for who lovingly provides for our family, but He also on top of that blessed the both of us with 4 amazing children and He allowed us to have them, He allowed us to be able to raise these wonderful children and to love on them every single day.  And, no matter how full my hands may be, no matter how our day turned out, none of that matters because at the end of the day I realize how truly blessed we really are.

Do you get that comment a lot as well?  How do you respond?  Comment below and let me know! 🙂

Check Out This Site!!!


Or anyone with kids for that matter, I have just discovered an awesome site, and I may be the only one who hasn’t discovered it, and if that’s the case I’m sorry 🙂  but, I saw this and just had to share it with you.

Well, I knew all about the answers in Genesis web site for adults, but I’ll be honest, I haven’t even visited it…………. yet, but the other day in our homeschool fun we were learning about penguins and I went searching for a fun game or video to help further teach about penguins and their habitat, but every single thing I came upon talked all about evolution which I was of course not okay with, until I stumbled upon this:

There’s an answers in Genesis for children, now as I said before maybe I’ve just been living under a rock and am the only one who didn’t know this existed, but all the things I’ve heard about and I never knew about the kids section.

But, anyway this site is so awesome!  They have fun activities, and worksheets, they have videos telling you about all kinds of interesting things including why evolution couldn’t have happened on a child’s level of understanding, and many more things.

I hope you all get a chance to check out this site, tell me what you think of it.  Do you know of any other sites that teach from a creationists point of view?  Comment below and let me know.

Tip #3 Being An Intentional Mommy

For tip #3 I wanted to focus on what we do with our time, as mothers, our time is spent many places we have to make meals every day and for a lot of stay at home moms that includes all 3 meals a day, we have to clean and keep the household running smoothly, for us homeschoolers we have to do school everyday, we have to entertain our children, we have to make sure to take some time for ourselves so that we don’t get burnt out, we have to make sure to take time for our marriage, the list goes on and on.  But, for this week let’s just make sure that we are spending enough time in the area of spending time with our children, good, quality time.  This way, we can learn to be intentional with our time.

This means that we need to cut off the computer, turn off your phones, get rid of any distractions, make sure that you’ve already taken care of things that would normally get in the way of this time and focus on them for the day.  Try to make as much of the day all about them as you can, I know that this one will be difficult, because we do have daily duties that will try to get in the way but, with this one if you prepare ahead of time it is possible and it wouldn’t be out of the question to make one day every two weeks or so where you do nothing but spend time with them doing what they want to do no distractions all day long.

For those days that you don’t have an entire day, do make sure that you are taking at least 10 minutes for every hour of the day to spend that intentional time with them with no distractions as well.

You Have To Read This Book!

I have just started reading this book, it’s called “Raising kids for true greatness”  By: Dr. Tim Kimmel and I absolutely love it so far…………….. yes, so far, I haven’t even finished it yet, but I just started it a couple days ago and I just have to share it with all of you.

Usually with books like this, I really want to read them and intend to but I never get to it, but I’ve started making myself read again because I really, really, really love to read so I decided that I’m going to read one book a month since with 4 kids that’s what’s doable right now 🙂 and this was the first one I picked out to start reading and I’m so glad I did.

I won’t go into too much detail of it yet so you can have a chance to get it for yourself if you choose to, but I will do a post on it later once I’ve finished it completely and give you more details.  But, the gist of it is talking about raising your children to have more than just earthly success, but raising them to be truly great and in that be truly great for the Kingdom of God. so, grab a copy of this and let it change your views of success for your child!  🙂


raising kids for true greatness

Tip #2 Being An Intentional Mommy

This tip should come after the prayer and this is when we can either trust God to give us the wisdom and patience to do what we should in disciplining our children or we could choose to go our own way and disregard Him.  So, after you pray you need to make yourself think before you speak or act:

Usually how my days are they start out wonderfully and then the kids all start to come out of their rooms everyone is being so sweet, cute and loving,  and then for some reason breakfast time brings out the worst in them and the arguments start “mama, she’s too close to me.”  “stop looking at me.”  “This isn’t what I wanted for breakfast” and the list goes on and on, now I could choose to do one of two things, I could think about what’s going on, I could choose to think out my actions before I open my mouth to discipline and I could be calm and gentle with my children as the bible wants me to do “A gentle answer turns away wrath, but harsh words stir up anger.” Proverbs 15:1 or, I could choose to do it my way, choose the way of the flesh which in turn causes me to sin as well, and loose my cool, get angry, and most likely make the rest of the day stressful.  Now, they aren’t all this way and most of the time even when they are like this as soon as everyone cleans up from breakfast and our day starts going they soon realize how much we all love each other and they start showing that love and start helping one another out and caring for one another but at this point if I chose to go my own way, my attitude is out of check and I let myself get in the way of us having a good day.  But, if I chose to first go to the Lord in prayer, do what He has to say and continue to think before I speak or act we usually have a really great day.

That’s not to say that there aren’t a ton of more arguments and that’s also not to say that your children won’t still be disobedient but, if you make sure to be intentional and follow these tips, it is so much easier to deal with and you can soon go on with your day with a great attitude.

Look for intentional mommy tip #3 next week!  Comment below to let me know how this is helping you become an intentional parent!


Here where we live we get super excited about snow, because it very rarely happens but, yesterday we had our third snow of the year and it’s been great other than the fact that it’s been super cold so we only go outside a few minutes at a time.

Anyway, I figured it would be a great time to share my very simple but yummy snow cream recipe well, here it is:

  • First, you need to have snow and yay, we finally got enough to make some snow cream and this is a lot for us! 
  • Collect some of that snow into a bowl
  • Add in some milk, sugar, and vanilla extract and mix them together I honestly never measure this out in exact amounts, just add in these until it makes the snow very smooth and it tastes yummy 🙂
  • And of course, ENJOY!!

Tip #1 Being An Intentional Mommy

Pray BEFORE you discipline your children.  I think honestly this is one of the hardest things to do because if I’m truly honest when my children are disobedient especially when they’ve done the same thing I’ve told them not to do for the 10th time in a day, by that time I’m usually at the end of my rope and praying about it is the last thing on my mind when it should be the first.

So, when your child decides to be disobedient or act our for example when your 3-year-old asks you for a bagel and you say no so she throws herself into the floor and starts kicking and screaming (oh yes, that totally happened yesterday)  don’t do like I did and loose your cool with them and end up having to ask forgiveness from them and the Lord, be intentional and pray first!

  Before any feelings are hurt, before you end up getting angry or frustrated and yelling, before you make yourself feel like a mean mommy, just go to the Lord pray to Him, ask Him for guidance, ask for Him to show you what to do in the situation, ask Him to give you  the patience to deal with whatever the situation may be (even when that means spending forever trying to get your child to go through a time out or if you just need to give yourself a timeout)

Being An Intentional Mommy

I’ve done several posts on caring for the home, but now I’m going to focus on caring for your children, and one of the best ways we can do this is to be intentional.

The term intentional means: done in a way that is planned or intended.  It doesn’t always come naturally, we have to plan it out, practice it, and keep at it to make it habit.  I have been working at being intentional in my parenting, but I find that I’m not being intentional enough.  So, mom’s (or dad’s) let’s do this the right way, together.

Our children aren’t just our job or just our responsibility, they are a blessing from God, He gave them to us to love, to train, and guide them in this life.  What is a better way to do this than to be intentional with them as much as we can.

This isn’t going to be easy, and as the definition shows, it’s not going to just come to us we have to try at this and try very hard.  When we feel like giving up or that it’s just not going to do any good, that’s when we need to push the most.

I’m going to do several posts over the next few weeks with some tips on being intentional in different areas in our parenting I only want to focus on one a week, once we’ve done the one tip for the week we’ll add a new one so it’s not too much at once and we either forget about some or we have a really hard day (especially if you have several little one’s and it gets really hard).

So, until then be thinking of what the term intentional means to you and how you would like to be intentional in your parenting.  Look for tip #1 tomorrow.

Sling Review

Now that baby Ethan has been home from the hospital for a while now and we’ve gotten back into our “normal” daily routine, I realized that I was going to have to do something if I ever wanted to be able to do anything with two hands again because, either I was busy doing something with the kids, doing some type of cleaning or something else on my busy list was needing to be done all while holding the baby, there’s just no way to not do it without having pure chaos and a horrible looking house, so I had remembered that a while back I had gotten some things in the mail for a discount on baby items, one of these being a sling and I thought that would be great to have and I looked up their website and decided to go ahead and order one.  I measured the size I would need and placed my order, it actually came a bit faster than I had thought it would and once I got it in I was so excited to use it.  It took a little time to figure out at first but once I got it, I absolutely loved it!  I now use this thing all the time; I can get everything done that I need to all while having a happy baby.  I was even able to go grocery shopping the other day with all 4 kids by myself and to my surprise it was a breeze!  I just had to share this sling with you guys.


The brand is Seven Everyday Slings, and from what I’ve seen, you can almost always get them for a great discount, mine was originally $45 and I got it for $15, how awesome is that!  If you go to your website there are tons of different styles and colors you can choose from, the one I got was called pivot and it’s so cute.  They also show you all different ways to wear your baby; it’s not just for newborns.  At first I was a bit skeptical of how comfortable I would be without still holding Ethan with one hand while he’s in the sling, but after wearing it and seeing how snug he is in this thing I know he’s not going anywhere and I feel completely comfortable doing everything I normally do with him in it, and he stays quite comfortable too, the second I put him in it he falls fast asleep.  So, if any of you are looking for a good sling this one is great, it’s even for when they get a bit older as well, I tried it on with Isabelle the other day just to see how it would be with her in it and it was pretty comfortable that way as well, but at the time all she wanted to play so I didn’t wear her in it for long.



***I’m in no way affiliated with seven everyday slings, I only own the product and really enjoy it***

Special Dinners!

Do you guys have special family nights?  Nights where you do something special together as a family?  We have never set out any “special” nights for doing certain things, we just play together as a family whenever, but we had never really done any extra special out of the ordinary things as a family on any certain night but Jeremiah actually got me thinking.

The other night he came out to the living room some play time with his sisters carrying a huge blanket draped over his shoulder when I called them for dinner.  I was wondering what in the world was on his mind and why he was carrying the blanket in, and he said “we’re all going to sit and have a picnic dinner!”  I absolutely loved this idea of his, we had done a picnic outside several times during the summer but we had never had a picnic in the house and never at dinner time, dinner time is eaten at the table almost all of the time never as a picnic in the floor.  I am so thankful Jeremiah had this wonderful idea it was so much fun to be able to all sit close together and just have fun something about being on the blanket in the floor just made it different than sitting together at the table.  While we ate Justin read the kids a few bible stories and we all talked about what the story said and enjoyed listening to the kids it was an out of the ordinary thing to do for us, but it was great!

I know it may not seem like a big deal or it may not seem like it would be much fun but it really was and now I think that we’ll try to do this one night a week maybe we’ll play some fun games after we eat as well other than our normal playtime.  Maybe you guys would like to give this a shot or something else that’s really fun but not normal for your family.  I can’t wait to see the smile on the kids faces when me and Justin are the one’s to pull out the big blanket to have a picnic dinner together again, I just know they’re going to be so excited.

What are some fun family night things you do with your kids?  Any ideas to share I would love to hear them, just comment below and let me know!

Do You Memorize Scripture?

In your homeschool (or even if you don’t homeschool) do you get your children to memorize scripture? I think doing this is a wonderful thing that will help them out in all of life, they will have the Lord’s word in their hearts always and no one will be able to take that from them.

We try to learn 2 scriptures per week and we’ve just recently started this back up.  I’ll admit, it’s just as good for me as it is for them I don’t have scripture memorized like I would like to so this helps me know and learn it as well.

I also wanted to share with you a new bible we’ve been reading, we actually received it as a gift and we have been reading it morning and night the kids love it as do I. This bible storybook puts the bible in a wonderful way that kids can understand and learn the bible in a whole new way. The name of it is the Jesus storybook bible:


  I have never read a bible story book for children quite like this one and it’s so hard to put it down this has become a favorite in our house for sure, so if you’re looking for a great bible for your younger children I highly recommend this one.  I also want to encourage you to start teaching your children scripture and helping them and yourself to memorize them.

Do you have a favorite bible story book?  Do you already get your child and yourself to memorize scripture, if so what are some ways that you memorize it?  Any fun games for memorizing?  If so, comment below and let me know!

One-On-One Time

Back when Jeremiah was our only child I had plenty of time to spend plenty of one-on-one time with him when I wasn’t working, he didn’t have to share any of that free time of mine with anyone, but now here we are with 4 kids and I’ve been staying at home for almost 2 years now and time does have to be share A LOT!!

The majority of the day when we have playtime, it’s all of us together which is great, I enjoy it, the kids enjoy it, matter of fact, most of the time you can’t separate them for anything.  But, they do need special time just with me one at a time no sharing, just my undivided attention focused on them.

They need this from us every day, even if only for a little bit of time, it really means so much to us.  Jeremiah especially loves this time and asks to have this time.  The other kids don’t ask for it yet, but I’m sure when they are older they will.

If you are a parent of multiple children, take that time with them each day even if it’s only 15-30 minutes a day your child will love it, that special time can turn a child’s whole attitude around, trust me I’ve seen it!

During this time have no distractions, put away your phone, make sure that your other children are settled in doing something else and are occupied and let them know that you’re having special time with their brother or sister and that their time will be soon.  Let your child choose what you do or what you play, that makes it an even more special time with you, do it even if it’s something you really don’t want to do or don’t enjoy, do it because they do and once you see the smiles on their faces you will start to enjoy it too.

Do you get that special time with each time, or is this an aspect of your parenting that you want to change?  If you do this already, what benefits do you see your child gaining from this special time with you?

Cold Weather Indoor Fun!

Are your kids getting cabin fever like mine are, I don’t mind cold weather especially if it snows, but we just can’t get outside as much as we usually do it’s just too cold even though here it doesn’t get nearly as cold as it does some places but to us it’s freezing.  But since my kids love the outdoors and we just can’t make it out like we want to I’ll share a few fun things to do during this cold weather.

  •   Always have play dough on hand or if you don’t have any make some of your own, there are tons of recipes for it everywhere here’s one we like:                                                                       1/4 cup salt
    1 cup flour
    1/4 cup waterLet your child mix the flour and salt in a bowl then add water. Knead the dough to make a clay consistency. You may need to add more water.

    You can also add color with food coloring, or use unsweetened Kool-Aid for a nice scent and color, you can even make it sparkle with glitter.

  • Obstacle course:  Get out their remote control cars and put some large cans or paper towels under the rug and let them jump their cars over it they will be occupied doing this forever!  You can also do this with their hotwheel cars but it’s even more fun with the remote control ones.
  • Cooking:  no matter what the weather my kids love helping in the kitchen, but make sure to let them help out even more during the cold months to give them something to do plus, who doesn’t like an excuse to bake!
  • “Washing dishes”:  My kids also love to help wash dishes they think it is a game so give them a bin of water and some dishes and let them go to town (this works well in the bathtub too so they can be as messy with it as they want and you don’t have to worry about water getting everywhere)
  • Play Stations: Set up different little play stations, spend about 10-20 minutes at each one and then start all over again.  Ideas for this would be play dough, painting/coloring, tea party, cars, baby dolls, pretend play/dress up
  • Dance: Cut on some music and have a little dance party, who cares how silly you look, the kids will love it and you will have tons of fun too.
  • Reading: Do lots and lots of reading all throughout the day snuggle up on the couch and just read to them, get them to read to you or just make up stories together and act the stories out (hot chocolate makes this even better)

These are just a few things you can do during this cold weather, do you have any other ideas?  Comment below and share them with me.

Awesome Homemade Gel Paint!!!

I have been trying to do tons of fun arts and crafts with the kids lately, and our latest fun thing to do was when we made Gel paint, this stuff is absolutely amazing and super simple and inexpensive to make so glad I saw this idea!

What you need:

  • Styling/hair gel
  • Food coloring
  • Glitter or sequins

First get a small amount of hair gel



Then, add food coloring, for this amount of gel (about 2- 2 1/2 Tbsp.) 1 to 2 drops is plenty.


After that, add your glitter or sequins, or any other fun things you can think to add


Finally, time to mix it all up, we used popsicle sticks to mix it and they worked really well


And here is your final product, a very fun, neat looking, inexpensive, homemade paint and the best part of all is getting to see the kids having fun and watching them use their imaginations thinking of fun things to paint!

ImageHope you enjoy making this with your kiddos, if so comment below and tell me how much fun it was for you!!

Baby Ethan Is Here!!

Baby Ethan arrived on December 3rd, at 5:40pm.  He weighed 7lbs. 13oz. and was 20in. long



he took a lot longer to get here than anyone had expected, but he was well worth the wait!!  Shortly after he was born we noticed that his breathing was really labored, he was just working way too hard to get his breaths in and was breathing too hard, so the nurse took a look at him and then they took him into the nursery which was very hard for us because we wanted him to stay with us the entire time but we needed to make sure he was ok.  Well, a couple of hours passed by and they kept telling us everything looked fine, he just wasn’t getting any better but they were going to watch him for a couple more hours.  So, a couple more hours went by and they came back in and said they were going to be doing an x-ray to see if he had something more going on than just a little extra fluid in his lungs that needed to come out, they came back and told us that the results were fine that they found nothing wrong but they were going to keep him in the nursery still overnight to keep an eye on him.

The next morning we still hadn’t heard anything but then his pediatrician came in and told us that they were going to do one more x-ray to see if anything had changed since his breathing was still the same.  After a while we went into the nursery to sit and snuggle with him in there and his pediatrician came to say she was going to talk with us for a few minutes.  All along, they told us he may have to stay in the hospital for about 2 days until he got better and that we may be able to stay in the transition room with him so I was really hoping we wouldn’t have to leave without him I’ve never had to leave a baby at the hospital and wasn’t looking forward to having to possibly do that this time around.  When she sat down with us, she said that his breathing was getting a little bit better but that he was just having trouble eating since they couldn’t feed him until his breathing had slowed down and even then he wasn’t very interested in eating.  But, then came the bad news, she told me he had pneumonia and at that point I just broke, started balling my eyes out and then she told us something else that I didn’t know but that he would have to stay in the hospital for 10 days (8 of those days would be without us) and that I was totally unprepared for and then I REALLY broke down.  I didn’t know how I was going to leave my baby there, how could we bring ourselves to do that.  I believe that is the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life.

Thankfully they let us stay until late that night at dinnertime so we went in a few more times after that to see him and then the final time came it was so hard to walk out of that room and walk away from him knowing he would be there without us for that long.  When the nurse wheeled me out the elevator was right down the hall from the nursery and moving through that elevator door watching as we went past the nursery door was just horrible and I broke down once again.  Now we’ve finally gotten past the first few days and it has gotten a tiny bit easier just knowing that it won’t be much longer and that we do get to go see him everyday and also the thing that has made it be able for me to manage is just seeing how the nurses and pediatricians in the nursery really do truly care for each and every one of these babies, I was watching one of them the other day she was just rubbing one babies head talking so sweetly to him it was precious and it did my heart good to see that.  Now we’ve only got 7 more days until we get to go to the transition room and stay with him and I can’t wait!!


 He’s now doing much better, they did have to put in a feeding tube since he was having trouble eating very well but now he’s getting a bottle at every other feeding and he actually took a bottle for me for the first time yesterday, I had tried to feed him the first day he was born but he wouldn’t take it at all I never thought I would be so happy to have my baby take a bottle from me!


  Since Ethan is going to be staying in the hospital for a while I’m not going to continue blogging back on the 15th, but I will start back on the 20th.